Wow. I never intended the title of that last post to have a dual meaning. My intention was not to bolt; I promise. But the last three or so months have been awful and wonderful and I don't know how else to share the news other than to blurt it out. The Cable Family is growing by one. I took the above picture several weeks ago, so I am no longer at the "apple" stage of the fruit basket comparisons of fetal development. I think now we're up to "length of a banana."
The first trimester found me unsurprisingly sick, but surprisingly also a bit apathetic. It was the strangest thing. I really couldn't tolerate many of the things that I used to really take pleasure in. Writing here was one of them. Reading was another. Because I define myself in large part as an "avid reader," suddenly finding myself not able to pick up a book (or read a magazine or even a web page) had me a little bit concerned and somewhat down. My Midwife said that many times our focuses shift during pregnancy and perhaps mine was just shifting inward and away from outside stimuli. Perhaps. But, I am glad that it is finally abating. I am happily able to crack a book again and I've finally found the motivation to sit down and write. I've missed it. Only as I'm writing this now do I realize how much. I miss the community and the feedback and the quiet time during every day to reflect. I want this space to be a part of my life again. I feel so out of the loop! I have much catching up to do. As I'm making some transitions in my work life and still trying to put my well-being (and sleep!) first, I'm not sure yet how often I can visit this space, but I hope it is fairly regular.
Finally, I have to thank you. For sticking with me and most of all, to those who sent me messages to make sure that all was well. It is. It really, really is.
Finally, I have to thank you. For sticking with me and most of all, to those who sent me messages to make sure that all was well. It is. It really, really is.
